There is a woman, not knowing whether she will find her soul mate, but she is patient. There is a woman who knows that she can always "stand her ground" because she is strong and conscientious. She does not listen to her body's call for rest and recuperation. Diagnoses, treatments, suffering and pain are not reasons to pause. She is "a strong woman who gets back on her feet and back to life after every storm, no matter how violent." But her body can no longer. Only now, in a state of absolute powerlessness, does she begin to reflect on her life, her love, her suffering and her health. Under the pseudonym Freyja Fjäril, she writes her story, draws strength from it and encourages others to believe in themselves and in love.